Sorry little baby

Daddy is sorry that he shouted the other night and scared little baby.

Daddy promises he will not scare little baby ever again.

Mummy and Daddy Loves You

Little baby, Mummy and Daddy will always love you.

And daddy needs to be fanned.

Happy Two Weeks and One Day

How time flies. 

Your cheeks have grown chubbier.

You're still as feisty. 

You've developed more facial expressions.

Your hair's turning a lighter shade.

Your toes are still wriggling all the time.

Your face is getting more squarish.

You're liking the music from the cot mobile now. 

You still don't enjoy bathing.

You're crying and fussing a whole lot more.

And daddy and mummy love you even more each day. 

The Princess Has Arrived

And so Little Baby came into our world on 9 October 2013, 2 weeks and a day ago. 

She was a screamer right from the moment the doctors and nurses pushed her out of me. Her screams filled the entire room and more. I remember hearing one of the attendants commenting that she was loud. Lol. 

When they first showed her to me, I couldn't see her clearly (I wasn't wearing my glasses in the OT). And then just as quickly as they had whisked her away to be cleaned up, she was placed onto my naked chest. Skin on skin. Mother and daughter. Within 5mins of her birth. I like that arrangement. They kept her on me for a whole hour before bringing her away to be dressed. 

I'd thought about what to say to her the first time I saw her. I couldn't come up with anything and thought I'd just wing it and say whatever came to my mind. In the end, I only managed a cheesy "Hello Little Baby". 

The c-section was a scary and somewhat traumatising experience but I shall not dwell on it. 

What's most important is Little Baby's a relatively healthy normal little baby girl. 

Maybe we should stop calling you Little Baby already. Right, our precious Nadya?

This was taken about 1hour and 15mins after she was delivered. 

 

Little Baby's Space

Little Baby's cot is finally here! 

See you tomorrow

Little Baby,

You were so active last night. Before Mummy and Daddy went to sleep you were moving around and kicking so much. And when Mummy was asleep (or trying to sleep) during the night you were kicking too. I could feel the bumps and thumps through the night.

Are you preparing to flex your muscles when you get out in a few weeks' time?

We'll be seeing you tomorrow again in Dr Tan's office. I know you don't like the scanner but try not to kick it again okie?

Bises et a demain nos bebe petite!


Love,
Mummy & Daddy

Thoughts

Self-doubt occasionally reaches out even to the best of us.

I’m just a normal girl and reservations about my own abilities float into my thoughts from time to time. More in recent days and I think it’ll be on my mind even more so as October draws nearer.

October. That’s when Little Baby arrives.

So what’s on my mind now? Plenty.

Will the wound hurt alot from the C-section? Can I manage holding her and feeding her without wincing in pain from the wound?

Will I produce enough milk? Can I handle breastfeeding? What if she doesn’t latch on? How the hell do I know if she’s had enough?

What if I run out of patience and feel like slapping her when she cries uncontrollably? Will I scream at her? Will I shout at her?

Will I be able to bathe and clean her properly? What if she inherits my not-so-good body constitution instead of her father’s robustness?

Will I be a good mother? Can I handle things? Can I handle her?

Will I be able to inculcate good values in her as she grows older? Will I be able to set a good example for her to emulate? Will I bring her up well?

I’d like to think I am not the only one to think or feel this way whether as a soon-to-be mother or a new mother. Or maybe some mothers questions themselves even when their kids have grown up.

Whatever it is, come what may, I’ll be winging it and doing the best I can.

Of course, with K charging on by my side as well. :)